Friday, November 30, 2007

A week to reflect...


I've spent a few nights shopping at the man store...That's what I feel like when I go through the profiles on Yahoo. It makes me giggle, so that's all good. I decided to jump back out there and take a look around at the hotties that are in the cornfield. (Let's not go that far, I'm just looking for those that may be missing less than half of their teeth.)

I sent a short message to a guy I thought looked a little interesting--no response. So I decided that until I can change my status to divorced I'm just going to sit back and see what happens, not to mention recovering from Mr. I'm Working on Marriage Number4/Looking for my Soul Mate and Mr. *Open Minded*. Tonight I had two messages from two new people. I'm not sure either are dating material, but I'm keeping an open mind--please not THAT kind of open mind. A really weird thing when I realized that one of the people checking out my profile on Yahoo has the office next to mine at work...creepy. He didn't have a photo posted..but I know it was him...YIKES!

I've been in a good mood this week. Today as I was puttering around my kitchen baking Christmas cookies with the holiday music cranked up I thought about last Christmas. I had just left my marriage of 26 years and was nearly in the fetal position every night after work, and the weekends were spent crying and trying to get my head on straight. Even though it was my decision to leave the marriage it was still a struggle.

I banned Christmas from my life last year. No gift exchanging with friends, no Christmas music, no Christmas tree...Bah Humbug I was not celebrating this holiday in any way. I have to say that the holiday season last year was probably one of the loneliest--saddest times of my life.

But, this year is different. I feel stronger, much more confident and if all goes well Santa's going to bring me that divorce I've been waiting on since this time last year. If he doesn't, and it goes into 2008 I will be ok with that too.

A person that I work with is intent that I spend Christmas at her house..she feels I am going to be sad and lonely. Nope, I don't think so. I'm going to invite my kids over for Christmas night, and if they can't fit me into their schedule again this year I'm going to pour myself a glass of wine, toast the air in front of my Christmas tree and celebrate my new life.

Christmas 2007 theme song...Santa Baby

Santa baby, slip a sable under the tree,
For me.
been an awful good girl,
Santa baby, so hurry down the chimney tonight.

Santa baby, a 54 convertible too,
Light blue.
I'll wait up for you dear,
Santa baby, so hurry down the chimney tonight.

Think of all the fun I've missed,
Think of all the fellas that I haven't kissed,
Next year I could be just as good,
If you'll check off my Christmas list,

Santa baby, I wanna yacht,
And really that's not a lot,
Been an angel all year,
Santa baby, so hurry down the chimney tonight.

Santa honey, there's one thing I really do need,
The deed
To a platinum mine,
Santa honey, so hurry down the chimney tonight.

Santa cutie, and fill my stocking with a duplex,
And checks.
Sign your 'X' on the line,
Santa cutie, and hurry down the chimney tonight.

Come and trim my Christmas tree,
With some decorations bought at Tiffany's,
I really do believe in you,
Let's see if you believe in me,

Santa baby, forgot to mention one little thing,
A ring.
I don't mean on the phone,
Santa baby, so hurry down the chimney tonight,
Hurry down the chimney tonight,
Hurry, tonight.

1 comment:

Yvette said...

I feel for you, Dazzling. I can't imagine what it's like to have to start out on your own after having been married for so many years, BUT we humans persevere, and we move forward in spite of our losses. And in moving forward, be become stronger and wiser and all sorts of very good things.

I suggest Match.com, when you're in the mood. In my experience, people who pay for their memberships tend to take the process more seriously, and Match has a 6-months-free guarantee, if you don't find a match.